My country does not allow the existence of unwed mothers

First of all, local time on October 8th, that day I have to laugh at a stupid thing. A bunch of foreigners needed to be told THAT Chinese person cannot attend to receive any award. I would first question, what is the use of trying to do the impossible. As for what happened that day, about the award, it is not here to say.

Today is Oct. 10th Beijing Time, two days after the strange group of foreigners tossed over the Prize.

This morning, two unknown district officials (the fact is they do not present me any proof of identity documents) , the one in charge is a middle-aged woman, come to my house in the name of census.

Since they are from the Census Bureau, it is easy to understand, they come because of my daughter "Pretty".

The chief unknown official has in her hand several sheets of paper, one of which is covered with the red seal. During the process I do not see what it says. She confronts me and says, you see the policy is printed here. I flatly refuse to look at the paper. I say I do not want to see, that is your job, you can say anything.

She shows her empathetic woman's gesture and says to me, in your situation you can get married, just marry, (even) the application for residency is free.

I say, I am not getting married.

Flipping through the pile of papers she finds a number and says, look I understand that in your case, before the 15th of this month pay a fine of eleven thousand Yuan plus odd ends. She continues, right now is the lower rate, after the 15th will be a higher rate,,, . Mother, yeah, this thing is like selling goods, now, there is discount ah,,,

(Now I would like to ask, if they didn't have hope to convince me to accept the penalty of giving the money, why would they have come all that way 10 kilometers to see me. Pretty was born 4 years ago, why did they not come then?)

I say, eleven thousand is not expensive, I love my child so. She is more than any money, that is, even a million is too little, but I have not worked for several years. No one can help me any. The commune and the society has not shown their concern about me,,,

She says, I can't care, you'll have to pay a fine in accordance with the policy. Then in a forceful tone she says, do you know you broke the law, you violated the marriage law, the court could punish you,,,

I'm dizzy. Yeah, I say, let the court come to me, here you should not be the one to talk to me about that. I have the right to give birth, my child has the right to live.

She says, all faults are caused by your own doing. You have no right to have children. The marriage law provides that one gets married to have a child. Our country does not allow an unwed mother.

This time I completely understand. What! I live in this country as a woman, and I do not have reproductive rights- no right to be a mother. When I was close to 40 years old becoming a mother is against the law. I violated the law, and this implies my daughter does not have the right to life,,, . But for whatever, I have only three ways, first, and quickly get married. Find some man to adopt the child, anyone can do. Second, do the best sensible thing- pay the fine before the discount runs out on the 15th. When I miss this chance, the price goes up, and that time, it is me to deserve the misfortune. There is another way out according to the census chief official. She says, why a child is born so long ago and the problem is not yet solved, let it continue to be unresolved (when she says that is she thinking on her own ....),,,

When she says that if I do not immediately pay the fine, Pretty's problem with her Residency will indefinitely not be able to be resolved, I ask her, even you cannot solve, then tell me, who can solve it then.

She insists that it is not her responsibility other than telling me to pay the fines. That is, all my life problems, I and the children life or death, it is not her concern. She is responsible to present the fine and her emphasis that I violated the law. She is just stressing in our country unwed mothers are not allowed.

I repeatedly ask, if it is not her concern, then who would care? What government department's affair,,,?

In the end, when she leaves, she does not answer my question. I still do not know if it is not her concern, whose concern is it.

She leaves, I suddenly remember the group of October 8th foreigners must have done something extremely stupid. According to my superstitious mind, it is seeing the news, after two days that gives me the bad luck.

Who represents the Government to rescue me from the census official saying that: Our country does not allow unmarried mothers. I am not married and having a child is illegal. I am a single mother is my mistake. Before the 15th I must pay out less than twelve thousand Yuan, the discounted fine, otherwise the consequences could be not knowable. Pretty may never have a residency, perhaps the court will trial me, and more frightening things could happen beyond my imagination,,,

The cruelest is the lingering death of torture, I do not want a lingering death, quick death seems to be the enjoyable,,, (oh, yes, I did not ask for the right and benefit)

I record my experience here first. In the future, I am not sure I can keep on. I may make inappropriate actions, such as to see that official in her office, to ask her whether having Pretty is my natural fall- I mean, it ensures death. Or perhaps, I do not know, since I do not have reproductive rights, Pretty has no right to exist. Then I have all the reasons to thoroughly laugh at the October 8th foreigners who did such a silly thing. Obviously Pretty does not have a passport, which means that we cannot go to their place of "award ceremony" to die.

Concerning my rights, I have a lot of questions. Are there any lawyers who can help me?

Chat Ko